Be Still
01 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
in God, Love, Sovereign, Still
There’s a dry-erase calendar stuck to the wall at the end of the hallway.
It’s conveniently and purposefully located to grab your attention as you walk by on your way to and from the elevator or the kitchen.
Next to the little black boxes that indicate the days, there’s a space where one can write one’s To Do list for the month.
In the past, this section has been filled with such humorous objectives as “Be Awesome”, “Be Godly”, or “Be Sexy and Godly”.
But today, as I made my way down the hall after a day of classes, I noticed that the calendar had been updated for the month of March.
Big letters across the middle half of the calendar read “SPRING BREAK!” and various other days throughout the month inform of other floor events.
But it was the To Do list that caught my eye.
There was only one item on the To Do list, written neatly in round handwriting.
Be still.
Not a suggestion. Not a joke. A command.
Be still.
Standing in the middle of the hallway, gazing intently at the calendar, my heart cringed.
Cringed because I’m not very still.
At all.
I go and do and move and work and concentrate and run and hurry and do it all over again.
I’m not good at being still, and I’m stealing from God when I refuse to stop and consider Him, and I’m stealing from myself when I kept going, going, going until I crash.
Two words on a dry erase To Do list and I can feel the guilt in my stomach.
There’s grace. And mercy. And love. Love rich and deep and high and wide. And I’m not thanking God for any of it, because I’m not still enough to see it in my own life.
But I do want to see. I want to see Him power and grace and sovereignty and compassion in my life.
I want to see it and flip it back around to worship for Him.
But I’m never going to see if I can’t be still.
~Natalia
